May the force be with me

SOOOOOO frustrated!!!
Did others think waht I posted is nonsense~~~
I know I do not have so strong background as you guys!!
I did not major in EDUCATION!!!
So, I know nothing about EDUCAION!!!
That's why I am here, I am learning EDUCATION stuff at UW
However,I'm trying to do my best....
I know I am not good at all.
But, I really really study hard.
I spent the double times than you guys, you native speaker...
I know I am not good at speaking, at showing my opinions.
Imagine, what you gonna do if you learn with a second language
And I know, my English is not as good as you guys...

Do you know how hard it is...
I am lonely, homesick, and stressful
I have to face it BY MYSELF.
BUT, I am not defeated..
I will catch you guys...
Just WAIT...